UNMASKED: Snippets & notes from a lifetime collection of journals (pre-diagnosis).
Advocating for autistic acceptance.
TW: REFERENCES TO SUICIDE
April 10, 1994
Although I understand that it is true, I still can’t believe that Kurt Cobain committed suicide. Why? Why? WHY? And why has this upset me so? I mean, on an intimate, personal level. He was someone I let into my life … I listen to his music and cry silent tears …
April 11, 1994
OK. I have some vague semblance of understanding in the Kurt issue. In my little world, nobody is supposed to die, let alone by a self-inflicted gunshot wound! Of course I’m upset about it! Kurt … why?
This is a time that I just don’t understand. It’s hard for me to understand that people wake up in the morning & some of them … feel so helpless about life. Re-reading his interviews, I see times when he jokes about self-destruction & I wonder, “Were they really jokes or truth, subconscious or not?”
Autistic people have a significantly higher rate of suicide and suicide attempts.
If you are autistic: You are not a burden. You are not a waste of space. You do not deserve to die. You are not alone in this world – you are a valued member of this community.
If you want to be an ally: Support begins with acceptance. Learn from autistic advocates; we have insight and a willingness to share vulnerable moments to help make the world a safer and more inclusive place. You may never fully understand us but you can believe our experiences as valid.
Please follow this link for suicide hotlines in your country: Suicide Stop
Whatever you do, be gentle with yourself. – Sanober Khan